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What would the perfect life for you be like?

If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be?

Would it be a change in your appearance? A change in your responsibilities?

Let’s face it, nobody is completely happy with everything in their life. Some people hate the person they married but are too scared of divorce to do anything about it, others hate their jobs but need the money to keep a roof over their heads.

Just imagine if you had the power to change something in your life, whether it be a relationship or bond you have with somebody, or something more life changing like traveling across the country and starting a new life away from “home.”

What’s stopping you? From making the change. . Is it money? Is it fear? Is it the opinion of others? Sometimes it’s important to remember that you are one man for yourself. You have to wake up in your own body every day and you have to continue on your way to your miserable job or to pretend to be happy with somebody you aren’t. So why are you waiting to do something about it? Don’t wait. Start now. Make the change you have been waiting for. If the rock in your way is money, start small. Pick up another job. Sell some of your stuff. Start focusing on making extra cash in your free time or using less of your “busy” time on other things and devoting more time towards your goals. If it’s not money and it’s the relationship you are in, then stop fearing what is going to happen if you say something and take control. Tell them how you feel, what’s on your mind and how you wish to see a change. If it doesnt work out and you end up without eachother then it wasn’t meant to be and God has better plans for you. No feeling is forever, So whether you are upset about the situation because you now feel alone, just know the pain is temporary and you will be happy again as long as you let yourself. If you are happy with the situation then great! Just don’t stop working for your goals because now that you have gotten through one obstacle, there will be more, and they will not stop coming you just need to face them in the order they arrive.

Just because you don’t think your situation is changeable, doesn’t mean it isn’t. You can change anything in your life because the best part is that its yours. Meaning you have the control and you have the power to feel any type of way you would like and be anywhere you want to be. If you choose to be happy, then be happy! Screw those who don’t like seeing you shine and shine harder on them!

Be the change you want to see. Make the move and be HAPPY with your life, because life is too short to not be happy.

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Snow Bunnies

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What’s something you hear about a lot ?

 ” Short people problems “

” Thin people problems “

” Shopaholic problems “

Here’s what I find to be Common “White Girl Problems” , for many of us ( yes including myself )

#1 PiNtEReSt oVeRbOaRd

Here’s a big one , especially for me .

If there is any where I refer to for absolutely anything in this world at any given time or place  , It’s Pinterest.

My kitchen looks like I was the founder of mason jars and label guns. From Coffee to Cocoa & Toothpicks to Chip Clips .

My bathroom with the bedroom curtains being used as a shower curtain on a separate shower rod then the shower liner . . for the elegant look. . you know , in a bathroom .

My Bedroom with the typical Christmas mini lights around the mirror

Last but not least my living room with the mason jar on the entertainment center filled with little pieces of paper folded in half each one with 1 out of 50 reasons why I love Jerome. Labeled ” 50 Reasons Why I Love You . ” ( yes made with my convenient labeler )

#EverythingCanBeImproved


#2 Do You Take Debit ?

The serious SERIOUS desire to eat an entire box of Girl Scout Cookies the second you step outside your car at Wal-Mart and there’s a colorful beautifully stacked hundred count of cookie boxes made from yours truly , Girl Scouts. ” Hi do you take debit card ” ? . ” No . Sorry . “

#TheExtremeDissapointment


#3 Wheres My BEAR ?!!!

Here’s one that relates to the problems I have been running away from for months now . .

I have a weird desire for my fiance to buy me a huge stuffed animal . I tell him its so I can hold it and lay with it when he isn’t home but really it’s because i’m strangely excited about the thought of having a stuffed animal the same exact size as me . He kepts taking me as a joke and telling me i’m a weirdo and calling me crazy.

” Baby , will you buy me the huge bear? They’re on sale right now! “

” You know what else is on sale ? THIS D !! “

And the joking begins and desire for the bear is gone again , farewell until next time.

#BearyUpsetting


#4 Elsa or Innocent ?

Alright so just recently ( about two or three weeks ago ) I finally got my hair an acceptable color blonde . Because of the fact that I already have blue eyes , I Now look like the ultimate white girl , just slap on my north face and ugg boots and I’m your lady . The problem with this is when you braid your hair , boom ! you are now Elsa from Frozen and will be reminded all day by every child that sees you .

#ElsaIsThatYou ?

#5 ” Wait , its another sale ! “

I do this , a lot . My poor fiance will be trying to talk to me or get me to do something or even just trying for my attention and after five seconds of watching TV together I’m already on a website adding things to my cart .
” But babe the sale ends in 2 hours and its 10% off shipping !  “

At that moment of word release , I realized I have a serious addiction to online shopping. Whether it costs 2$ or 50$ if I’m online the shopping experience is way more dangerous and harmful to my wallet and / or bank account .

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Too short.

tumblr_moxav03iva1r0ii93o1_500Life is too short to take things for granted. Life is too short to get mad at the little things. Life is too short in general.

Today my entire perspective changed as I almost lost someone I love so deeply.

Life is a precious thing. It can be taken from anybody at any time . Even the ones you love.

Stop stressing little problems and appreciate the air you breathe while you’re breathing it.

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Hit where it hurts.

I can’t pretend like I know where to start when it comes to talking about this so I’m just going to jump right into it.

If there is one thing I had more then anything it’s the heroine and opioid epidemic going around.

Too many of the people that I love strongly are being effected by it.

Just last year I lost my cousin due to an overdose.

My family has been ripped to shreds and I don’t even see my uncles anymore because of it. All three of my uncles are addicts. I get to see them maybe once every six months, if they aren’t back in jail that is. The biggest reason my biological father didn’t raise me or wasn’t in my life as I was growing up is because of the fact that he’s a hard addict. Every body in my family has been in jail under a drug case. Everybody except me and my sisters.

It really hurts me to know that my loved ones have fallen into this trap. I know how hard it is to stop doing something when you’ve been addicted to doing it for so long. I’ve seen too many people die including my own family members, because of this epidemic.

Some things you grow to learn when dealing with family and friends that are addicts is that you have to be understanding. They didn’t choose to be an addict, nobody does. You become addicted to the way something helps you and the way you feel on it, but you never get into it with the intention of being addicted to it. To need and want it when you wake up and to not be able to get by without it because you won’t feel okay after going without your usual dose of whatever your substance of choice is.

Another thing I learned is not to judge. Because of the simple fact that one does not make the choice to become addicted, you can’t judge them for it happening to them.

Addicts need love and compassion. They need to know you don’t hate them regardless of how disgusted you might be with their addictions.

I can’t stand the thought of losing another family member or someone else that I love and if I ever have to go through that again I don’t think I’ll ever look at drugs the same way.

R.i.p. Danielle LeBlanc. You are missed, we love you. ❤️

November 1985 – April 2015

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Perspective 

Life is all about perspective and how you look at things . If you look at things with a negative mindset , odds are you aren’t going to like the outcome no matter what it is . If you look at things with a positive mindset , you’re going to enjoy and appreciate what happens whether it’s what you wanted or not . It’s about how you look at things , not the thing  itself .